Day Forty-Eight

Today was ordinary. Did my MT lines that took far longer than it should because my heart really wasn’t in it being that it’s a Saturday. Then I have spent the rest of the day reading text for my uni course which leaves my brain stretched and fatigued. I tried to do some stuff for the shared poster presentation but I feel like I’m getting nowhere. I know all sorts of stuff about the immune response but I don’t feel like I have anything to contribute to our poster and the presentation which leaves me feeling depleted. There’s just so much to read and so little time to read it and it all does my head in on the weekends when I should be relaxing but again, there’s just no time. I did force myself to sit down and watch a movie while I ate dinner tonight and I still managed to go for a walk tonight. Didn’t make my step count but still it was better than nothing. Even went out and stood with the sun on my skin twice today. Probably not for as long as I should but at least it was something and again, better than nothing.

I really have no urge to cheat on this OF program which Is great. I probably eat far too much protein most days but thankfully, at the weight I am, I feel like I have a grace period this year where I can get away with it and not have to be so strict. As long as I’m continuing to lose weight and I push through any time I don’t lose weight, then I’m good. I’m happy. I really do hope I make it to under 100 kg before my b’day. That would be amazing. Looking forward to feeling better in my body.

Practiced the 10-minute presentation today. Took me 8-minutes and that is going to have to be good enough because I don’t feel like I can extend it much further than that. I’ll see how it goes when I do it for the kids. I hope I reach the point where I don’t need notes to do it when it comes to the day I have to present. It truly will be far more impressive and engaging if I don’t have to rely on notes.

Anyway, I’m exhausted mentally, plus it’s late. But today, I won.

What do you think?