Day Twenty-Three

It hasn’t been easy not to eat all the things today either. I told you, the first few weeks are easy for me, it’s once I hit about week three or four that things begin to head south and I’m so concerned that is beginning to happen. Though, I haven’t had any biscuits today even though they are now open and the kids have eaten some. I had none of their snacks, my big one today was 6 LBDs and 2 mouthfuls of their mash potato. So really, not too bad if you think about it. I still went for my walk too and while I’m still 1000 steps away from my goal it’s still better than not having gone for a walk.

The whole food thing is maybe not going so well the past couple days too cause I start uni tomorrow and that means having to drive in peak hour there and back, pay for petrol, fuel, parking and sit in a room full of strangers (other than one amazing human who did my TAT course with me so that is super exciting that of all the people she showed up!) and put my learning hat on and be prepared to own my bigness and put myself out there to be seen and heard and judged by others. Knowing I now lose time being in the energy of my kids. Knowing this is leading down a path where I have to become more and more confident and despite what the aura reading lady said about orange being confidence, I don’t often feel it! I’m not sure how I’ll sleep tonight and then I have to get up earlier than normal and hopefully don’t forget anything. It’s all feeling quite stressful for me and I think I’m definitely a stress eater. So the fact that I have resisted so far is actually quite amazing!

So really, today, I won!

It hasn’t been easy not to eat all the things today either. I told you, the first few weeks are easy for me, it’s once I hit about week three or four that things begin to head south and I’m so concerned that is beginning to happen. Though, I haven’t had any biscuits today even though they are now open and the kids have eaten some. I had none of their snacks, my big one today was 6 LBDs and 2 mouthfuls of their mash potato. So really, not too bad if you think about it. I still went for my walk too and while I’m still 1000 steps away from my goal it’s still better than not having gone for a walk.

The whole food thing is maybe not going so well the past couple days too cause I start uni tomorrow and that means having to drive in peak hour there and back, pay for petrol, fuel, parking and sit in a room full of strangers (other than one amazing human who did my TAT course with me so that is super exciting that of all the people she showed up!) and put my learning hat on and be prepared to own my bigness and put myself out there to be seen and heard and judged by others. Knowing I now lose time being in the energy of my kids. Knowing this is leading down a path where I have to become more and more confident and despite what the aura reading lady said about orange being confidence, I don’t often feel it! I’m not sure how I’ll sleep tonight and then I have to get up earlier than normal and hopefully don’t forget anything. It’s all feeling quite stressful for me and I think I’m definitely a stress eater. So the fact that I have resisted so far is actually quite amazing!

So really, today, I won!

What do you think?